Wandering child

running20away20-20little20girlShe is but a curious child, adopted from a painful past to a glorious present. Although most kids have a vague memory of their childhood, she vividly remembers every detail of the stench from which she was rescued. Yes she was born into the lowliest and most horrible place called sin. This shanty town offered her the momentary comfort of shelter in the shack she called home. It offered her friendship in the secrecy of gossips that turned to bite her with their stings and bad habits that were norm in its streets. She was hurt but it was the only place she knew.

Across the river she gazed every morning to the skyscraping towers and sparkling streets of the city, yet she never understood what happened or even how to get there. One beautiful morning as she gazed towards that city as usual, her mother summoned her in. There she found an old rich man with a wide smile upon her entrance. This girl suffered slavery in her own home, her mum was willing to essentially sell her. As she looked between the eyes of this old man and her mum for clues as to what’s happening, she could but only see silence. Finally, the old man opened his mouth and with a surprisingly gentle voice that she never heard before all her life he said, “my child, you will come to stay with me. I have paid the full price.” As he uttered these words, she looked at her mum who was holding the bag of money and refusing to look back to this child or say a word. This child never understood what was happening but she knew well enough in her heart that going with this old man was the best decision she would ever make in her entire life. She stood and as he stretched out his hand, she lifted hers to hold them. 

Now many years have passed and the morning view has changed. Now she woke up every morning and as she looked across the river to where she came from, she was grateful for this kind old man. Yet one warm afternoon, she missed her past, she missed the momentary happiness and what seemed freedom that  her town called sin offered her. She wandered off from the gates of mercy and paths of grace and righteousness towards the isle of temptation that lead to her past. The sky was getting dark, the path grew more ugly, when she suddenly had a flash back of the day when she was rescued from that town called sin and the kindness of the old man who loved her as his own. How he must be weeping over her disappearance? Has he withheld any good thing from her? Has she lacked anything? None. She was just curious child dipping her feet to the fire of her past. 

It didn’t take long for this wandering child to realise that she better get back home. She didn’t stop to think whether her father will let her in, she knew his kindness and love well enough. She run back, back to her place of safety and peace. 

“For my feet were close to slipping….
You spoke to my heart in time….
You have promised, and I do believe….
You won’t forget this wandering child….” – Bethany Dillon (So Close) 

“So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall!” – 1 Corinthians.10:12

“In the same way, count yourselves dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus.” – Romans.6:11

“For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.” – Colossians.3:3

“Since you died with Christ to the elemental spiritual forces of this world, why, as though you still belonged to the world, do you submit to its rules” – Colossians.2:20

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Still i will praise You

my eyes may grow dim

Gazing on the sky

Watching and waiting

For clouds that may never appear 

 

Still i will praise You

Your faithfulness is true

i know You will come through

 

The fig tree may fail to bud

And no grapes be found on the vines

When the earth is all dry

And fail to produce the crop

While the stalls and pen give away

Their sheep and cattle

As it’s all left barren

For everything is broken

 

Still i will praise You

Your faithfulness is true

i know You will come through

 

The Father of lights shines through

To mend every broken heart

To straighten every crooked path

To breathe new life

To the cold and empty land

 

Still i will praise You

Your faithfulness is true

i knew You would come through

 

If You hadn’t risen

i would be most pitied

But now i live to tell

The glorious splendour

Of Your majesty and grace

 

Again i will praise You

Your faithfulness is sure

i knew You would come through.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Called by name!

So… one thing upset me recently and considering that it was small it really made me think as to why it bothered me a lot. It’s been almost 2 months since I started working, a colleague still doesn’t call me by my name. I noticed this last time when she shouted “Excuse me! Excuse me!” pointing towards me and later on referred to me as “this lady”. Such things don’t usually bother me, but I only understood why when I came across this verse today:

“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by your name;
You are Mine.” – Isaiah.43:1b

Name is your unique identity that says a lot about you. And if someone calls you by your name it shows that they care about your identity, who you are as a person. I think that’s why it hurt when this lady I worked with for almost 2 months didn’t refer to me by my name.

The beautiful thing is, the Bible tells me that the God who flung the stars in the universe, the One who created the world we live in with all it’s beauty, the One created our most delicate and complicated body also knows me not just as a physical being with motion, but as a person, calling me by my name.

Psalm.139, one of my favourite chapters in the Bible puts it beautifully:

“You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely.” – Psalm.139:1-4

Joy, joy, joy!

The month of July has been busy with so much joy that I haven’t experienced in a very long time. I truly felt God’s blessing shower over me as I partook in a summer re-union from my church back home (that rekindled my glimmering hope) and graduation. In all this I sought to glorify God and for Him to be seen in my life, regardless of how well or how bad I perform, because I am confident that my identity lies solely on Him. What a joy! No matter how much goodness and joy we experience in this world, it can never compare to the joy that awaits for us in heaven!!!

Just to share something that God taught me during the re-union. I went with an expectant heart that God would speak to me and on the first day, He did! A song by Casting Crowns – “I have a dream for you” was playing. It was the first time I was listening to this song but it really spoke to my heart as I really was anxious about what lay ahead following the completion of my degree. Isn’t the Lord wonderful?! He is never late nor too early, but just on time. He is definitely worth trusting because He is Ebenezer my God who brought me thus far and will carry me till the end. 

The crossroads

Everything has a beginning and an end, at least so it seems. One thing starts and once you took forever to adapt, it’s finally time to move on. Another thing starts, with its own highs and lows, but then again that comes to an end as well. Life seems to be a cycle of many events that start and end. And through this process, you meet various kinds of people and learn a lot of things that may help you deal with the next cycle better. I realised that these many cycles are not mutually exclusive, but actually a narrative of one event that is unique just for you. The narrator is God. I have also realised that there is one Strand that connects as these ‘circles’; He is Jesus. I am reminded of this verse in Hebrews.13:8 (the first English Bible verse I learnt by heart as a child): “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever.”

So as I approach the end of one chapter in my life and look with hope and faith in my Father for the future, I find rest and “peace that passes all understanding”. Because, wherever I am, there He will also be, blessed be His name. Amen! 

Tired of waiting?

You’ve been waiting all day long 

Your eyes have grown dim 

Your legs grown numb 

Your throat has dried up

With the scorching heat of the sun 

 

When you prayed for hope

A glimpse of rain or cloud

You fear this may be your last

 

When it all becomes unbearable

And your eyes can only behold

The dryness of the land

 

Don’t lose hope keep it burning

It may flicker and grow cold

But it won’t ever turn off

For He is faithful God

 

He will provide the oil for your lamp

Peace for your mind and rest for your heart

Hold on to Him, He will never disappoint

He is faithful to those who trust.

 

 

All Glory to Him

Romans 11 33-36

 

Reading this passage gave me an absolute confidence in the God that we serve. No matter what the situation is, we can be rest assured that all things are from Him, through Him and for Him, so if not anything else, for the sake of the glory of His name, He will guide us and supply all our needs. Above all, since we are His children, His love for us is deeper than the sea and higher than the sky above. 🙂

 

Be Thou my vision

living water

we search for wells to satisfy us

only to find ourselves thirst again

run to the shower in our bathtub

when we can be cleansed in His rain

look for peace in the tiny streams the world offers

when His everlasting water fall is sufficient to heal our pain

 

should the people of God run away

from the very name that signifies their sonship? – CHRISTian

do we not often neglect why we are here?

when Him turns to me and His to mine

when we decide to take charge of our minds

forgetting that i was crucified with Christ 

and this life i now live is no longer mine

 

let us hold fast to His grace so we can shine

like the sun in the day and the stars at night

that our cups may overflow and flood all around

let the cross never depart from before our eyes

that the world may see we are the temple of the Holy One!

 

“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.” – Galatians.2:20

 

In God we trust

These few days I had been challenged to think about where I really put my trust. Struggling with some uni work meant that I could really do with some help, I was entitled to it, it was my right! Yet it wasn’t happening, which lead me to frustration and complaining. Then the Lord reminded me of a couple of verses in my very moment of despair: 

“Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.” – Psalm.20:7

Blessed are those whose help is the God of Jacob,
    whose hope is in the Lord their God.

He is the Maker of heaven and earth,
    the sea, and everything in them –
    he remains faithful for ever.” – Psalm.146:5-6

It was really comforting to remember that my Heavenly Father has the whole world in His hands, and His help is way better than any earthly hands can offer. That’s enough for me. 

A friend of mine also reminded me of this famous quote – “In God we trust.”

Grace

Grace and mercyShe was bathed in the stench of ungodliness, she can hardly stand herself. She wondered where things went wrong, but she couldn’t trace their roots. Yet it was there all along creeping and growing with every inch of height she gained.

He saw her first cry, so beautiful and tender in her mother’s arms. Yes, He was the type of King who engaged with His people; from the poor old woman down the road to the rich business man on the high street. From the day she was born, He saw the troubles this girl would face, so He made a plan, for His land was governed by truth and justice. His only Son to take her punishment that she may be freed from those heavy chains she carried around.

Soon she was invited for a visit to the King’s court and was told to come through the front door and that there will be One who will lead her on. She didn’t feel good enough or worthy to enter that way, clearly that’s only for those who are up there, princes and princesses not for a muddy, poor criminal like her. She wasn’t even sure why she should be there, it was not where she belongs. Thus she decided to enter through a lesser gate and asked the guard there if she could go in. He replied, “Sorry Miss but this is not the way to see the King, go through the front door, He is expecting you there.” The girl stepped her foot on the door step and started marching across the shiny, whistle clean aisle. She approached the King on the throne, with the One who loved her by her side. The King couldn’t help but look at her with compassion and mercy. If His Son thought she was worth dying for, she was precious indeed (though at the moment she may not look like it). He rebuked her for insulting Him, as she attempted to evade the invitation by trying to enter through the side door. She thought she was not worth the honour and the truth is- she wasn’t, but there is something called Grace! What mercy? What love?!

“14 Therefore, since we have a great High Priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. 15 For we do not have a High Priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet He did not sin. 16 Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” – Hebrew.4:14-16